I AM giving you, and you will give yourself, permission to no longer be keyed up or energized and “on guard” continually, so that in the unexpected BANG! when books are dropped, or a dynamite blast from a construction site building project happens, you are no longer vulnerable.
I HAVE HEALED YOU and you no longer need to be wary, be vigilant against unforeseen dangers and things or events that might happen, like an RPG to a guard tower or an IED hit to a convoy on Route Irish that has guys in it you just released out of the FOB less than 30 minutes ago.
I AM your Healer.
It is no longer your lifestyle to live fearfully, you are Mine. Trust in ME. Don’t trust in your ability to manage consequences. Sin exists but I have overcome, relax and release your fear, in Me.
I AM Trustworthy.
The people you will soon see and serve are people who still live in fear, of themselves, of the unknown, of the changes they see in their mortal form. In My immortality they are just moving forward in the path I have for them, so the changes are not alarms. Trust in ME with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge ME.
I AM directing your path. Run away from evil and run to me.
Healing to your body and breath to your soul. Rest to your soul. Forgiveness brings healing. Forgive the people who didn’t even know you but shot at you. Forgive the grief, forgive the suiciders, and the bitter ones, the ones with hatred and fear and anger. I have come for them, for you, to have abundant life, not abundant threats. Trust me.
Trust. In. Me.
Just trust Me and let go. Be the person you are supposed to be. Your watch is over, as it relates to Iraq. You will no longer ever again be in that place of restless, unrelenting danger.
I AM with you, I have called you by My Name, you are Mine.
When you don’t remember to carry concealed, I will be with you. And thru the brutal presence you will not be overthrown, and thru the fire and smoke you will not be burned or choked.
You can see and hear and take in sensory things that will no longer grip and paralyze you, and when your ears hear a sound that makes your palms sweat and your muscles tremble, your heart will stay calm and steadfast and the effects will eventually subside. The physical will catch up with the spiritual.
Because I AM with you and I have called you by My Name. Called you not by some title designated for you, like Much Afraid or Timid or Compensating, but I have called you by the Name Above All Names.
You are Mine.
Everything is totally fine, in this moment and forever more. You will not fear environments or spirits or people, but you will love ME and Fear ME in the way that a son fears and loves his father. It is ok to be dangerous and tactically dominant, and it is ok to be weak and ineffectual, as long as you humbly trust ME. I AM. Trustworthy.
That is what it came down to. Mistrust of the NORAD air defense network to stop commercial airliners from hitting your skyscrapers. Mistrust of leadership for imposing restrictive and politically motivated ROE. Mistrust of self-serving peers who would step on your forehead to gain another ladder rung for their careers. Mistrust of media who would grenade you as soon as applaud you. Mistrust of a spouse back home who *might* be wandering astray, as you mistrust even your own heart for looking around at options and fallback positional relationships and porn.
I am here to bring back your loyal trust, and allow you to be off guard and have everything escalate to ME, your Healer. In the calmness of MY love you will once again form strong cross braces and trusses that will be a platform which will not be precarious. A mental latticework that is not penetrable, that will not collapse into the hole, that will provide safe crossing. I will encourage and uphold you and help you stop worrying and patrolling for threats. I will be your security and your vanguard. It is ok. It is well.
Your days were written before you even knew ME. I have always known you and loved you, and everything that has ever happened to you was what I allowed to shape you into My vessel. Nothing happened on accident, or outside of the orders I cut for you before you deployed. You will no longer be a prime target for the lies that you were not enough, or did not do enough, or did not see the ‘correct’ level of combat. I put you where MY PLAN would have the best chance of germinating, and it has. So look forward.
I make you, and everything, new.